May 2012
23 posts
I always disappoint myself.
Relationships are harder now,
Because conversations became texting, arguments became phone calls, feelings became subliminal messages online, sex became easy, the word “love” gets used out of context, insecurities have become your way of thinking, getting jealous became a habit, trust has been lost, cheating became an accident, leaving became the only option & being hurt became natural.
MAMAMATAY KA NA NGA, GANUN PA ANG MAKIKITA MONG PICTURE.LETSE.INSULTO.EH DI KAYO NA.
letse.P****na.i wanted to scream this out loud.i really do.but you see, i don’t know how.coz ive always been known as the “good girl”,ung tipong akala nila hindi ako nasasaktan,hindi ako nagagalit,ung tipikal na “mabait”.kaya siguro nasanay na rin akong tahimik lang,iiyak na lang kapag may nararamdaman o nasasaktan.ung tipong ok lang ako ng ok kahit hindi naman,para lang wala na lang gulo.mahirap din.kasi minsan parang pakiramdam mo sobrang puno ka na sa loob na hindi mo na alam kung ano pa ba talaga nararamdaman mo.o kung may nararamdaman ka pa ba.mahirap kasi sa sobrang paulit ulit na lang,parang namamanhid ka na.minsan hindi ko na rin alam kung bakit ko nararamdaman ang ganung pakiramdam.
oo galit ako.oo nagseselos ako.oo naiinsulto ako.i feel so pathetic right now.coz when I saw that picture,i instantly,instantly feel sad and wish,WISH,that i was that girl.beside my boyfriend,so close,as if its happily ever after.isn’t it so pathetic?i know.me,the girlfriend,wishing as if im just another girl.every fucking single day,i was hoping and praying that i can wake up one day and have that, THAT,moment eh.IT IS MY DREAM.MY HOPE.MY VERY WISH.in that.and then i will see that,MY WISH,you and another girl.sa akin kasi parang ninakaw/nawalang pangarap eh.nasira ung idea,ung moment,ung pinapangarap ko.selfish?sa tingin ko may karapatan akong makaramdam ng ganito.alam ko namang walang meaning un.SABI MO NGA MATALINO NAMAN AKO.ok.pero pangarap ko kasi un eh.and basta mo na lang binigay sa iba.siguro hindi mo talaga maiintindihan,o siguro ayaw mo na lang intindihin.ok.
minsan napapagod na rin akong mangarap.tapos mamatay na nga lang ako, may mga ganun ka pang makikita.nasira na ung essence ng pinapangarap ko…
NOTE: sana hindi mo na lang dinelete sa profile mo,nakita ko rin naman at ng mga followers mo.so i don’t see the point deleting it.sayang din naman,it is picture perfect.PANGARAP KO KASI UN.
“People don’t understand long distance relationships until they’re in one.” but yeah, be on your own mind, I don’t fucking care.
are you planning to go see 'the beatles: the lost concert' film?
Nope.
